But she could not longer care for herself, her shower and dishwasher were broken beyond repair, and the home needed to be entirely rewired for electricity. Moving her to a safe, clean, secure place where people would help her throughout the day was the right choice, but it was hard on us all.
Last January, the preservation group, Wabash River Enhancement, bought her home. Nearly nine acres of woods and pastures, with the river bordering the entire eastern boundary of the property, it is a key piece of property in their plans to purchase land along the river and allow it to return to its natural state. My mother very much supported that plan, as do I.
Still, it is difficult to see the home where I grew up, where I had my first horses, abandoned and falling into disrepair.
My view as I drove up the old glacial moraine that our home sits upon. The woods are definitely beginning to take back the property.
Vines now are taking over the barn where I stored my tack, grain, and hay. My father also used this as his workshop.
Because the floor was concrete, we never brought the horses into this barn. They used another one in the main pasture. It's become totally overgrown and the roof and sides have collapsed and fallen in.
The paddock and main pasture were in a sheltered ravine and down and at the base of the moraine. (The name of the home is actually "Morainewood.") One of the reasons the home never flooded when the river ran high was the fact that the home was built at the top of the moraine - we could not get out as the floodwaters covered the highway and our driveway, but we remained dry.
See that hand banister? There are concrete steps that go from our driveway and down the ravine to the gate. The times I hauled hay, grain, and water (when the pipes froze) up and down those stairs! More than once I fell down them when they were covered by ice and snow in the wintertime. Now, you can barely see they are there.
I drove back down the driveway which runs alongside the ravine and the paddock. This was once a nice, grassy pasture.
Parts of the original fence remain. But the woods have encroached upon and overwhelmed the paddock and pasture, too.
This old fence post was at the base of the driveway and marked the southeast corner of the main pasture.We called it "Gossip Corner" because our horses used to stand there and call to a couple of horses that our neighbors owned down the road. More than once a car lost control and barreled through Gossip Corner, taking out the fence and setting our horses free. (Fortunately, none of the horses were ever hit by a car.) Those reflectors that remain on the post were to help drivers see the fence.
One of our pastures, the one right alongside the Wabash (see it behind the trees?) is being kept mowed. I don't know why as I know their goal is to let nature take over.
Although our fences have been removed, this pasture looked very much as it did when I was a teenager and had it full of horses.
As I drove home, the highway was deserted and so I was able to go very slowly and take a couple of more photos of the old main pasture.
It is hard to believe that five horses used to graze in this place!
Wabash River Enhancement plans to eventually raze the home and barn. I don't know when, and I really don't want to know. As I said, I truly do support letting nature take back the land.
But there are so many memories wrapped up in that place, of family, of horses, and other things, that I do feel some sadness at what is coming.
Like my old home, I am in a sad but peaceful state.


